i took a walk;
before the early autumn sun faded behind
in some sort of misty fog,
through these woods i walk;
distractions disappear
and thoughts are like moss,
catching them in a sighed squawk.
i took a walk.
the early morning in late October,
distractions were clear,
and yet seemed unforeseen.
nothing i could say to anybody
could never really explain my emotion or thought.
i felt trapped in a world that was dealt;
and as i walk,
with each step counted
with each autumn leaf fallen on the cold cobblestone path
the thought of you flashed between this and that,
what was and what could have been.
each step got me further away
and yet tightened the chain of the memories pain.
you are a summer’s sun;
in some deep forest winter scene;
on a carousel here i am.
the world that spins in a jar
full of Polaroids and untaken memories
here i walk through big lots of vast open prairie
swallowed by the big North Dakota sky.
in an early Saturday morning mist
i buttoned up my coat,
and took a deep breath.
the cold air surround my thoughts
as i mourned for yesterday’s death.
hope was a child we conceived together
but died in our arms from a form of carelessness.
oh, i took a walk;
because the pain became
before the early autumn sun
fading behind
in some sort of misty fog,
i took a walk to settle everything that wasn’t familiar.
i fought between the pain and freedom,
i fought between going back and just running away.
going back is and never will be an option,
but now, i am living without you and i must move on.
tomorrow always starts a brand new – no matter what.
so i must carry on!
today!,
i took a walk;
before the early autumn sun faded behind
in some sort of misty fog,
i took a walk and found myself again –
just a little bit at a time;
i took a walk
c. 2017 bgw
